My most recent challenges and fears

Different strategies I use to deal with certain fears

“Everything is going so fast with you, super quick!”, this is actually something I have heard from several friends now, “Where is the time?”

And honestly, I have no clue. The last weeks have indeed been filled with a lot of activities, thoughts, contemplations, actions and occurrences. One after the other. It’s like as if I have no fears or worries whatsoever.

However, this is not true at all. I still have fears and worries, doubts and wonderings:

• What if I am not good enough?

• What if I don’t succeed?

• What if no one likes my art?

• What if I won’t make any money with it?

• What if they don’t agree to sell it?

• What if I am not accepted for the exhibition?

• What if I won’t manage to set up my webshop?

• What if… what if… what if…

The difference is, that just a year ago these fears and worries were:

THAT BIG.

Now they are just:

THAT BIG.

What overloads them is my jumping heart, my happy soul, the joy I feel when painting and the excitement of new endeavors, leading with my heart, soul and intuition.

Of course I have no clue if I will succeed, how it will turn out, how I will feel, but it’s all irrelevant, because right now I feel good about it, excited, joyful, happy and glad. That’s all that counts, my present moment.

At the same time, I do not suppress my fears, I let them come up & am aware of them. I acknowledge them and ask them the following questions:

What if I am not good enough? —> what if I am just the right amount of good enough?

What if I don’t succeed? —> what if I have already succeeded & will succeed more?

What if no one likes my art? —> what if some people love my art?

What if I won’t make money with it? —> what if I will make money AND spread joy?

What if they don’t agree to sell it? —> what if they do? Or someone else does?

What if I am not accepted for the exhibition? —> what if they would love to have me?

What if I won’t manage to set up my webshop? —> what if I just need the basics?

Simply asking my fears the opposite questions, creates more optimism and ease within myself. There are always at least two sides to a story, most often even more, but in this case, its enough to just go with the one complete opposite.

I guess that could be applied for any situation, fear or worry. And the resulting feeling from this approach does its magic by creating positive emotions and feelings, and that is what I want more of.

So, a bit more concrete, what I have finally decided and started to pursue, is to show, expose and sell my abstract art paintings!