My magnificent forest walk – control or surrender?

The impact nature has on us...

Detachment, surrender, receiving, mindless-ness, feeling & perceiving, intuition & gut feeling, hunches and moments of dep, inner clarity.

Versus:

Attachment, clinging, knowing, controlling, asking, wondering, searching, restlessness, obsessiveness, clarity, structure, security and being on top of everything, all the time.

These are all traits of mine. Some I have perfected over time & am currently trying to get rid of. Others have slept deep inside of me & are now coming to the surface. Some appear in certain situations, settings and moments of my life. The others, in other moments of my life.

The mind-controlling-attaching-structure part of me wants to write a post for today, that fits my previous posts, so that there is a cohesiveness to my channel here. A predictability, security.

The other part of me, wants to just randomly share with you my forest-walk. What I experienced, felt, perceived. Maybe in a somewhat-poem-like style, maybe with pictures instead of drawings...

And I can tell you, today this second part wins, so here it comes: my magnificent forest walk:

The feeling of getting out into nature, the raw wilderness of the North.

Mainly to connect; to myself, Mother Nature, God & the Universe.

Talk, perceive, feel & ground myself.

Snow is there, not everywhere, but in patches.

Some ice as well.

And many water puddles.

Lots of greenery as well: moss, lichen, conifers, blueberry bushes.

The blue sky shimmering through the canopies.

The sun shining and dancing in the water.

While I walk & enjoy, I feel something above me…

I look up & this magnificent, huge owl flies over me…

Landing in a treetop in front of me.

I stand still, stop breathing, looking at it, it looking at me.

Tears come flowing.

I cant hold back, so I start crying, in the middle off the forest,

looking at an owl so big, I have never seen before.

I start speaking to it, I feel it seeing me, understanding me.

For 15 minutes I cant move,

I cannot make myself leave this magnificent being.

How can I leave it?

Why would I ever keep on going?

But also:

I cant stand here forever. It is not mine.

I need to let it go, I need to detach from it,

Let it live its life, roam its kingdom.

If we are supposed to meet again, we will.

If not, we won’t.

But this moment will forever be in my heart.

As a moment of connection to God & the Universe.

As a communication between species.

As a sign for being on the right path.

As a point in time, a memory and feeling that I can treasure & cherish forever.

Thank you forest,

Thank you magnificent owl.

Thank you God & Universe.

Thank you me for surrendering, letting go of attachment & trusting everything.

Love,
Daria