What does it mean now? Or does it mean anything? Am I a lucky girl because of that? I don’t know.
I just know that I realized some things while it happened.
I was out with my dog Buffy, we were playing with her three balls. Yes, three. Cos she needs to at least have one ball in her mouth, while I kick or throw the other(s) so she can run after them. And put that on repeat…
At some point, she laid down to rest & decided to finally destroy her tennis ball for good. Those are her favorites, so when she finds one, its extra precious. Yet, somehow she still can’t keep herself from ripping them apert at some point.
Usually I don’t allow it, I feel a bit irritated cos it doesn’t serve the purpose for playing with it even longer and I have to collect the ripped pieces.
But somehow today, I decided to let her be. Just lay there & chew it to pieces. While I just sat there.
I also did not bring my phone, which I usually do. So I found myself just being in the moment & wondering: “What should I do now?...”
“…well, I might as well check the grass & the cloves for a four-leaf-ed one, maybe I will finally find one!”
Cos up till today, I never found one. So, it happened. Just like that. Not even a minute screening the grass, I found it! And I got so happy! Finally!
I picked it & decided to dry it & incorporate it into my most recent artwork, where I am painting 2cm x 2cm grids with things that fill my heart & soul, wishes and dreams I have.
I also realized in that moment, that by just being in the moment, letting go of what happens right then & allowing Buffy to rip apart her ball & being present without any distractions, I found this amazing piece of nature. How wonderful is that! It happened so quickly.
This made me wonder: how many wonderful-nesses and miracles do I miss, by NOT being in the moment? NOT allowing reality to occur as it wishes to? While being distracted by my phone or irritations?
I guess plenty! So I decided to be more mindful about every moment I am in, at least as much as I possibly can & pay attention to my surrounding even more, let things flow and be & see what gravitates towards me. It can only imagine it to be magnificent!
I wish you a wonderful Sunday!
Love,
Daria