Being delusional and loving it
We all need to be a bit more delusional in this world
Recently I had several conversations & thoughts that made me, once again, realize that I am quite delusional.
And I love it! Seriously!
But let’s just get out some definitions of what “delusional” means:
delusion = a false idea or belief (Merriam Webster).
in psychology: a persistent false psychotic belief regarding the self or persons or objects outside the self that is maintained despite indisputable evidence to the contrary (Merriam Webster).
delusional = believing things that are not true (Cambridge Dictionary)
A delusion is a fixed belief that is not amenable to change in light of conflicting evidence (Wikipedia)
I guess that is enough, and I still think it is awesome that I am delusional. Even though all these & other definitions are so negative & judgemental.
Why would I think that?
Because who can say that my idea of starting a company after my PhD & becoming a scientific illustrator is delusional? Without ANY business knowledge? Anyone. Is that true? No it is not. Because I had this idea and the belief in myself and I did it!
Who can say to anyone that moving away from home, into another country, leaving everything behind is impossible & painful & will not work out? Anyone. Is that true? No its not, cos I made that work too, cos I wanted to.
No one can state or say or judge anything another person does, thinks or feels, no matter what. Of course given that we don’t harm anyone else in that endeavour.
The thing is: our thoughts and feelings and emotions and beliefs shape our reality. This is a fact, just by checking out people like Joe Dispenza, looking into ancient knowledges & traditions, even modern neuroscience & psychology & medicine will show you:
If you really belief that you will get healthy, you will. If you belief that you are sick & gonna die in 6 months, you will. Check the Placebo effect & soooooo much more!!!!
Omg, I cant even hold myself back to get a proper structure in my writing, cos I get so excited about this topic!
The same counts for God & the belief in God. There is absolutely nothing “wrong” or delusional about that. Because it has been shown that a belief in some higher instance than what we can explain with science, is calming us, relaxing our nervous system and making us feel better.
I have seen that over and over again: people who claim to be atheists, suddenly turn to “something” else when their loved one got into an accident or diagnosed with cancer. We crave for help & support in the darkest of our times & ask for guidance & relief.
Luckily I am seeing more and more, that Science is catching up with what ancient traditions all over the world already know.
That everything is energy, that our thoughts are energy, that we transfer energy from one person to the next, that telepathy is something common, that we can reach out to loved ones that died & communicate with them, that water stores information depending what it is exposed to, that music & frequencies can heal or disturb us, that we are inherently a part of nature and need to be connected to its cycles, that light is essential for our health & the sun is not evil etc etc…
Yet still, if I shared that I don’t use sunscreen since years, that I always loved to be in the sun, that I believe in God, that I have certain wishes and dreams, that I don’t want to wear headphones (EMFs), don’t want to have artificial lights (circadian rythm), love to walk barefoot (ions & grounding) & so much more: all that could be seen as delusional by others.
And I couldn’t care less.
What I would just reply to someone calling me delusional about all that: try to talk to yourself & the universe out loud & see how you feel afterwards, instead of keeping things inside & letting them fester & grow into sicknesses & tumors & what not.
Cos that is another thing: most sicknesses we get as humans are not genetic, are not inherited etc. Most life-crises that we have come from unfulfilled dreams, suppressed emotions, had-to-dos because society tells us to etc.
Guess what?! If we would be a liiiiiitttlleee bit more delusional, dare to dream, think the unthinkable, live the unlivable, feel the unfeelable, we would be SO MUCH HAPPIER!!!
Oh, another thing that I strongly belief, that connects to what I just wrote: I don’t belief that we need, guns, the military & wars, there is absolutely no need to harm others & kill people & all the atrocities that are happening. I have been called out to be wrong on this & delusional.
I am not. I know that all this exists in the world, I am not denying it.
BUT, I think it is not neccessary, IF we would all be a bit more self-aware, self-reflective, delusional & connected to ourself and others. Then we wouldn’t want to harm anyone else, we wouldn’t cause conflicts, greed wouldn’t exist & we would live in peace.
And I think it is possible to achieve. Because I know that I am such a person that would not cause harm, and I know many, many people like that too! There are also many people in power who are wealthy, who do great things in the world, which means: IT IS possible! It is NOT delusional. And we are getting ther & I wont stop believing in it & doing my best to be a part of that.
It just might take some time, which is okay, we all get to live many more lifetimes. Yeah, that is also a delusional belief I have. People might think that its bullshit.
I know its not. There are also enough reports about reincarnation, past and future lives that exist that prove this is actually true.
And lets just say, for the fun of it: it is not true, yet I still belief it.
You know what this does to me: it gives me a huuuggee relief. I am glad & happy & feel at ease, I don’t fear death cos I know I will be fine, no matter what. And I might get another chance & new adventures to go through.
And guess what that does to me, on physical & biological & psychological level? I enjoy my life even more, + way less stress cortisol in my body cos I feel that I only live this life & then my soul is gone & all was pointless.
In the end, what all that I wrote means to me is:
I love to be delusional, belief what I belief, change that if it doesn’t suit me anymore, create my life just like I want it to be, no matter what others think. I am not harming a single soul with being delusional & thinking & believing all I described here today. (Oh & there is sooo much more I belief :D)
Last thought I recently had after a conversation: “We can afford to be delusional, cos we live in european countries (first-world-category etc).”
First of all: I don’t like this first-world, third-world division. There are differences, yes, but I would argue that many people in third world countries are much happier than we are here ;). & I do not like to put myself up or higher than anyone else just because I live in Sweden, I would never claim I have it better, because guess what: there are people that are completely satisfied with what they have & they don’t want more.
Anyways, what I wanted to say is: I dont think that being delusional, dreaming and wishing for things is exclusive or “allowed” for people in wealthy countries. What kind of an argumentation is that?
Do I not want people who are “objectively speaking” poor or live on farms to dream and be delusional? Of course not! Dream away, delusionalize away! Maybe their dream is to have 5 great farming years, or expanding their farm, or building a school, or becoming the major of their city or whatever else!
I really believe that everyone in this world can be delusional & dream as big as they want to! No exceptions.
And if we all would be and do that, I am 100% convinced that this world would turn to be even better, even faster ;)
Cos yes, this is also a strong, delusional belief on mine: the world is great, humans are amazing and we are developing into a good direction. No matter what mainstream media say (yeah another thing: I never listened to the news, even when I was younger, always was called out on that, never cared, it made me feel better), ignore the panic they make, be aware of the poop that happens, but keep on being optimistic, delusional & try to live the bestest of your best lives!
I promise you, if you do that, your own energy, life force and love will spread to everyone else you know & encounter and THIS is how we make a true change in the world!!!
Now, that should be it for today, I loved to write down my thoughts that way & in case they were a bit messy: this is how my brain works when I get excited, everything flows, everything interconnects & I have a hard time to keep it under control & structure it.
And I decided that if that happens, I will not try to control it, I will just let it flow freely. Thank you for reading this far, I really appreciate that & you a lot!
Love,
Daria
P.S.: an amazing thing that happened on new years: in case you remember, I usually soothe my dog with the fireworks the whole evening, sitting in a self-made cave, or sleeping in the dark bathroom. NOT this year! I started to read her a book (The War of Art, Steven Pressfield) and she was calm the whole night! No matter the fireworks! A miracle! Maybe worthy to try with your pet in case its afraid of fireworks ;)
